..::|| is it wrong?! ||::..

is it wrong for me to be pissed?!
is it wrong for me to show attitude?!
is it wrong for me to find it awkward?!
is it wrong for me to find it difficult to look them in the eye?!
is it wrong for me to be angry at them?!
is it wrong for me to be absolutely mad at them?!
is it wrong for me to be sarcastic?!
is it wrong for me to snap at everything they say?!
is it wrong for me to lose a bit of respect towards them?!
is it wrong for me to hold back my tears?!

is it wrong?!


thank you for the drama...
what a way to end the year...




|| putting on the smiley face... ||

..::|| A very not-so merry Christmas... ||::..

My Christmas wish this year is nothing more than just the absence of tears...



Merry Christmas everyone...

..::|| finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ||::..

i actually beat CALEB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first time in my entire freaking facebook life...
i got a 400 000 over points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


XD

( yea, i know, something like this can make me this happy... signs of ubber-patheticism syndrome... )

..::|| i wonder... ||::..

( let me just say sori in advance for ya'lls to listen to my endless love rambling... then again... it's MY BLOG!!! )

if the symptoms of being in love still exist in this generation?!

sweaty palms...
irregular heart beat...
cold sweat...
anxious gut...
anticipation...
can't sleep...
can't eat...
can't do anything else...

does all of these still exist?!

what ever happens to the purity and innocence of love?!

the days where being in love is the best thing in the world...
having a partner is the most beautiful thing in the world...
the time two souls spend together can freeze time and brings about magic...

are those times still in our presence?!
have we really lost the true meaning of love?!

i myself can't really answer these question cause i'm not sure...
have i truly lost the one thing that i believe in?!


missing the days where i still believe in true love

..::|| oyster mushroom with diced pineapple omelet... ||::..

How do you combine pineapple with omelet?!

you get ---> *title*

( yea, it's an ubber long name to type out again... )

ingredients as followed...

|| eggs ||

|| chinese celery ||

|| oyster mushrooms ||

|| pineapples ||

|| seasonings ||


*notice how i don't include the amounts and stuff... cause up to taste la...*


and of course, the procedure...

( suddenly had a sudden flashback to those days in the science lab writing reports... procedures... XD )


|| beat the eggs... ||


|| sauteed the pineapples... ||



|| add the oyster mushrooms and seasonings... ||


|| pour in the eggs... ||


|| try with all your luck to flip it over without ruining the egg... ||

( this is the hardest part actually... trying to flip it... i was almost successful... )


|| sprinkle roughly chopped chinese celery and serve with toasts... add chili sauce for extra kick...||

|| tadaa!!! perfect brunch... ||


|| clean plate!!! ||


yup...

simple instructions...
with simple ingredients...
creates simple magic...


*burp*

thinkingofnextrecipe - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..
snsd & super junior - SEOUL song
kara - Aha

..::|| detox diet... ||::..

i've heard of it and have yet to try it...

until today...

i finally got my ass over at the fresh produce section and started hunt for my detox recipe...

i've realized i needed a detox diet when there were multiple eruptions going on on my face...

( yes, i know it sounded disgusting... )

i mean, it was continuous...
like one after the other...
and it's like a freaking epidemic!!!

and the worst part is...

I'M FREAKING 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shouldn't the pimple-phrase be gone by now?!
goodness me...

and so, to safe my already-scarred face...
i've turn into a herbivore for one day...

( initial plan was two days... but my carnivore side of me is roaring for some blood!!! )

( blood as in meat... adding drama la yor... )

i started out with a full bowl of salad...

it was yummy-licious!!!

of course, it would defeat the entire purpose of a detox diet if i used mayonnaise and thousand island as dressing right?!

so i randomly pick and add a few other stuff and it turns out awesome-ly!!!

( sori, was too busy eating till forgot to snap a picture... )

basically i chopped

|| tomatoes ||
|| apples ||
|| cucumbers ||
|| Chinese celery ||

and as for the dressing, it's

|| olive-oli with balsamic vinegar ||
|| salt ||
|| pepper ||
|| soy-sauce ||
|| sugar ||

it was awesome!!!

of course...
it didn't take long before i feel hungry again...
and so i ate two pieces of toasts...

( those that are ready made and ubber cheap from the bakery section... )

and that was my breakfast-cum-lunch...

i kinda skipped my dinner because tuition duty...

( yes, i'm helping in educating the younger generation of our nation... )

and so when i got back,
i was starving...

i was so tempted to cook a oyster mushroom omelet but thought it might disrupt my detox diet...
but somehow was craving for the mushroom really badly...

so i came up with this idea...

i shall make a mushroom-pineapple sandwich...

( even i myself am surprise at my own culinary creativity sometimes... )

( and it was quite an experience in trying to cut the pineapple... )

XD

so i lightly sauteed the pineapple and the mushrooms...
added a few seasoning and that's it!!!

of course i made another bowl of salads
almost the same ingredients...
only diff is instead of apple...
i used

|| watermelon ||

and added

|| carrots ||

and so that was my dinner...

but i couldn't finish the salad and so saved it for supper instead...

and now... i feel like a freaking plant-eater!!!

no meat since morning...
my goodness...
it's as though something is missing
but i'm full...

come to think of it...
we constantly eat meat and it's almost like a drug to most of us eh?!

so this is my challenge to all you meat-lovers out there...

try to go one day without any meat...

seriously...

NO MEAT!!!

( eggs are considered as meat as well... )

( fishes... hello!!! it's an animal!!! )

of course, i cheated a bit... i added mayo into the sandwich but that was THE only non-vege ingredients...

other than that...

ALL VEGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

try it...

should be fun...

i think...

=.=


vegetarian - ly OUT bitches!!!

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..
snsd - way to go
f(x) - chu

..::|| finally back to the dark side... ||::..

yes, i've finally recreated another profile on the "buddies" site...

it was well...
for all the right intention this time...
i mean
i'm trying to enlarge my circle of friends and hence...
the "buddies" site...

and the amazing thing was

( so totally AM bragging )

is that immediately after i created the profile...
i got ONE mail...
and then for the next 24 hours...
i got almost 10 mails...
it was unheard of back in those days when i had my first profile...
i was flattered...
no really...

i am...

maybe because of this phrase i placed in my profile...

"just drop me a message and i will reply... don't worry, i won't bite... unless you want me to... *wink*"

yes i know...
it's cheeky yet funny....

i think...

anyway...
i'm curious to see how this go this time...
and yea...

i shall document my entire journey...

XD



checkingmymailboxlikeamaniac - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| maturity... ||::..

is such an overrated term...
everyone says that they are mature in some sense...

but are you really matured?!

i myself am guilty as charge for proclaiming that i'm matured way beyond my age...
but is that ever possible?!

yea, i do have thoughts and different priorities than most people but how different can they be?!
isn't that just part of my personality?!
what makes them so special that it gives me the permission to use that statement?!

come to think of it...
i'm not that matured anyway...

i have my own tantrums...

of course invisible from the public eyes...

i have my own childish desires...

like random trips to McD for my fav sundae cone...
and the all-so sinful fries...

or

the ever-so tasty waffles with strawberry jam with ice-cream...

i have my own childish hobbies as well...

sailormoon and mangas...
that's just the surface of the HUGE ice-berg...

not to mention my love-for-all cute things...

is this being immature?!
or is this just my personality?!

what defines maturity?!

is it the ability to earn your own income?!
or the ability to be independent?!

so what defines immaturity then?!

not being able to let go the past?!
worried about stuff that are just too petty in life?!

like i've said...
maturity is so overrated...
if it were me...
i would say...

" realizing that you are immature is maturity itself "

sotheverydeep - ly OUT bitches!!!

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..
snsd - one year later
snsd - boyfriend

..::|| not caring anymore... ||::..

this is random and a total outburst but yea...






I DON'T FREAKING CARE ANYMORE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





wutever - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| you know you're a HELP psychology student when... ||::..

1. surely your textbook is listed under your references in every single assignment...

2. you think writing a 5 page essay is a nightmare

3. you scream "APA is HELL!!!"

4. lecturers of yours are agents of torture!!!

5. you play BANG! in tutorials (depends on tutor... XP)

6. you complained about the prices in wisma HELP but still eat there because too lazy to go anywhere else

7. you don't find any difference between mid-terms and finals... both are equally stressful

8. you hate group assignments if the members are randomly assigned

9. you either hate turnitin or love it... depends on the percentage...

10. you begin to used psychological terms in your everyday conversations

11. only psychology students understand your jokes

12. you begin to analyze your own love life during social psychology

13. you see BIRG and CORF in every single football match...

14. you think that double spacing is a blessing in a 20-page report

15. you completed more surveys as compare to a typical normal student from another course...

|| i shall add to this list when i think of more... ||

..::|| time-travelling ||::..

|| easy, breezy, beautiful... ||

Can't believe classes are ending soon...
it's almost the end of the semester...

pretty fast if you ask me...
to add on the unbelieveness...
we're completing our first year already...
it's ridiculously quick...

still having the freshmen syndrome sometimes when i strut across the hallways...
I'm getting used to the new environment but somehow it's still a stranger to me...
i guess only when you leave will you finally feel the familiar-ness of that place...

my exact sentiment when i went back to KDU the other day...
it was all so familiar to me...
the familiar scent of the fresh produce being cooked to perfection as hungry patrons of the college flock the tables and chairs hoping to catch some yummy-ness before back to the torturous lessons...

sitting in the middle of all chaos...
i was transported back in time to the olden days where i was one of them...
it was almost surreal...
i even bump into some old friends...
it's truly is a back in time moment for moi...



coming back to the present time...
was just mentioning about entering the second year of our course...
my friends and i
we're just saying that we still feel like first year students...
newbies...

by entering this new stage
we no longer have the permission to act like newbies...
no more

"i'm not sure where this class is leh..."

or

"how do you do the references again?!"

or worst...

" where to check the schedule?!"


yea...
some of the questions that fills me ears all the time...
i shall compile a list of things later...





need to pee...

*running away*




XP




wastingtimeaway - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| ASSignments... ||::..

i'm suppose to be doing my assignments...
urg!!!
i can't write anymore...
am having writer's block...

( yet i can blog about it... the irony... )

hmmm...

just had like a marathon of communitychannel...

( youtube it... )

love the milo challenge...
feel like doing it but oh gosh...
i can't drink milk to save my life!!!

XD

anyway...
feeling a bit hungry now...
maybe i should go to McD's and do my assignments there instead...

hmmm...

nah... i prefer my own room...
there's a bed at least if i ever need some instant trip to dream land...

Oh yea...
i'm not sure whether ANYONE reads my blog but
let me know what ya'lls think about the way i wrote my previous post...
should i continue to write that way or should i stick to my usual
bitch-talking-kinda-informal-i-don't-give-a-dyamnnn
kinda thing...
let me know alright?!

just drop a word or two in the comment box
and i'll go check it out...

=)

dozingoff - ly OUT bitches...

ps : i know you guys won't even try to youtube it... so being a kind soul like me... i shall post them up here...

say thank you now...



|| anyone wants to accept her challenge?! ||

..::|| i wonder... ||::..

is cupid playing with me or something?!

*i know la i kinda lost your trust the last time but really... this is so mean of you!!!*

exactly one year ago i dumped my first ever official BF for a very stupid reason...
it's something i'm ashamed and never will i repeat it again...
i think because of that, cupid is very mad at me and decided to curse me to eternal damnation of singleness

*why would you shoot an arrow at my direction when you know it's either will not stab me deep enough or will just deflect from my thick skin?!*

not that i'm desperate but you know, it would be nice to have someone...
despite the drama and bitchiness and all the undecisiveness that comes with it...
i prefer having that one person there as compare to playing eye-ball tag wherever i go...
it's tiring and stupid and sometimes just plain creepy on my part...

*the arrow you shot was too short my darling, it didn't pierce deep enough... it just scratched his skin only...*

but this time cupid really went too far...
i found someone
( technically he found me but lets just keep my ego down for now )
and it was all fun until we went deeper...

...

=.=

( sounded wrong... )


i mean intimate...

( better... )

it was seriously the relationship i would say i have been waiting all my life for...

||have you ever met a person whom can tell your thoughts by just a single glance of your face?!||

||have you ever feel like your're so comfortable in his arms that you just want sleep there forever?!||

||Have you ever hear another human being's heart beat knowing it's beating a bit faster because of your presence?!||

||Have you ever fantasize all the things you wanna do with your bf and only to find out you've done all the things on the list in just two days?!||

yes...
my answer is yes to all of the above...
it's that fast and that crazy of a ride...

spending time with him was fun...
it was like hanging out with a best friend...
and no to mentioned the no barrier communication we had...
i mean seriously...

NC-17 is an understatement in terms of labeling our conversation

( meaning that we're open to each other... not dirty talk ok! )

it was seriously the one relationship i have been waiting for...

*you gave me an almost-perfect guy without any catch nor complications but why this?!*

so wat's the problem?!
well, apparently second thought was the culprit...
he was having second thought about where we stand...
i guess it was moving a bit too fast and now we're kinda stuck at a place where routine begins to set in and familiarity is spreading...
so it's either be contempt with the current situation or move to the next level
and i think he got a bit freaked out...

*are my feelings that fun to play with?! it's MY feelings btw...*

and so we had THE TALK...
and it went on for an hour or so...

( not too bad... considering we're actually like only three weeks in... )

and while we're going thru this...
i was smiling...
not because i'm happy nor trying to hide my pain...

i was genuinely smiling...
because to tell you the truth...
i sorta expected it...

( no, not psychic nor six sense... just something i know )

so while he was tearing up and letting all out...
i was just listening and explaining and smiling...

until a point where he actually said

" don't smile like that, you're making me feel like an ASS... "

XD

i know...

*but i'm prepared... i've learned how NOT to be affected by this... i'm not as vulnerable as i was two years ago...*

but yea...
in the end...
we agree on common ground...
no one was hurt deeply nor any conflict was created...

a bit disappointment is of course inevitable but hey, it's better than falling into the pits of misery right?!

*i'm stronger and way more matured than you think i am, and yes, thanks to you, i've grown and might even outgrown more than you predicted...*

and so, it was a happy ending in some sense...
i gain a new friend and i do hope this friendship will last...
because of the intimacy we shared, high possibility it will i believe...

( not to mentioned the jokes only the both of us will understand... XP )

all in all, great experience and fun was definitely in the equation...
something i will cherish this for a very long time to come...

*but i still trust you and do ask for your forgiveness... i'm not blaming you, just saying...*

so here's to a great experience and greater ones to come!!!

*give me a break will ya?! i'm tired to start new ones and playing all this games is really taking it's tool on me... so i'm leaving it all to you...*

( fyi, i know you're reading this... don't misunderstood... it's just something i need to write about... noticed the anonymity of the post... so yea... no worries... =) )


( although i really wanna tell that someone though... would be awesome to see his facial expression... XD )

*i do hope HE is running as fast as he can to catch up with me...*

*To Cupid. With love, Paul*

*ps : i'm still allow to have preference right?! and you remember my perferences?! =P*


clinkingandclankingaway - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| kinda-expected decision... ||::..

|| back to fluttering... ||

..::|| stroke by stroke... ||::..

i can't believe i have been going down to the pool for so many times now...
it's amazing...
like awesome-ly healthy way...

XD


but the pool is not so appetizing...
there's like mold on the walls...
stuff at the bottom of the pool...
pretty disgusting...

one of the reason why i never used a goggle...
i don't wanna see in detail where i'm swimming at...

besides the disgusting pool...
i managed to swimming 10 laps!!!
it's crazy wei...
and i don't like you know...
grasping for air after that...
i'm so shock at my own stamina...

XD

healthy living baby!!!

adding to my new-ly acquire lifestyle...
my diet is changing too...

and yes...
skipping meals and ridiculous-ly small portions are part of it...

but it's sorta healthy i guess...
i have quite a heavy breakfast by my own definition...
skipped lunch...
maybe eat a small snack
and gorge like a pig during dinner...
which i guess makes no different la...
but oh well...

anyway...
i've started exercising again...
but highly doubt i can maintain it...

X(

but i shall try !!!

healthy living baby!!!

randommuchpost - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| hibernation... ||::..

this blog is not dead!!!



















i figured i have to start my post like that just so that ya'lls know i haven't abandon this blog just yet...
not that i will...
but ya...

updates updates updates...
*update no.1*
I don't remember posting about this but i signed up for an audition almost three weeks ago...
for a upcoming musicale...
it's a comedy kinda musicale...
and guess what...

i got in!!!

awesome-ness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yup, i got in as an ensemble...
but i'm understudying for one of the main roles...
so it's exciting!!!
and the best part is that practice is starting soon but it's not gonna be like ubber hectic and all...

*update no.2*
also i'm involved in the Christmas dance this year!!!

seems like my career in performing arts is really taking off man!!!

XD

*update no.3*
major major add-on...
i'm choreographing for a musical for kids...
it's super cute!!!
most of my choreography are inspirations from youtube and there's even some moves from GEE!!!
( youtube-ed snsd-gee... you'll know what i mean... XP )

yes... as i've said, it's really taking off...
i'm kinda surprise and taken back at the busy schedule i'm having now...
classes are crazy...
assignments are even worst...

but i'm getting the hang of it...
it's awesome...

but i'm kinda beat up by all these stuff...

i have to wake up at 5.45am almost everyday single day since last week...
( need to catch the bus... *sigh* )

can't wait for the car to arrive...

oh did i mention...

*update no.4*
i'm getting a freaking car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XDDDDDD

it's my mum's car, she'll be getting a new car...
i'm just happy to be getting some sort of vehicle that origins i'm sure of and not some weird random vehicle whose history i know nothing of...
( dyamnnn... england suddenly so the powderful... )

*update no.5*
one last update before i official lay my head on my feather pillows...

and this i have to show in pictures instead...

suspense ma...


i call this

|| fluttering companion... ||

amtotallyback - ly OUT bitches!!!

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..

snsd - chocolate love
kara - mister
shinee - ring ding dong
colbie callat - falling for you

..::|| addiction... ||::..

Facebook has the most addictive games in the entire world...
i mean like seriously...
you first ignore it...
then you loath em' cause everyone seems to be playing them and posting up their scores and status and whatever not...
next thing you know...
u're playing em'...

( no... i'm not talking about mafia wars and sorority life nor farmville and etc etc... )

i hate all this addictive games!!!
it's not helping me staying away from facebook...
seriously people...
facebook has infected all of us with this addiction...
have you catch urself at times where you'll just log on to facebook unconsciously?!

to me, i have to check my bloody updates and feeds ever five seconds, and i'm not exaggerating...

now, my most recent addiction...

PLOCK

gosh... why am i so gullibly addicted to all these stuff man...


oh yea,
one more thing...
the newest-and-sorta-annnoying-yet-i'm-one-of-the-people-doing-it-cause-it's-cool trend is sharing videos...

seriously...

have you noticed how many videos are being SHARED every single second?
yes...
second people...


sigh...

facebook is taking over our lives...
even the movies mentioned about em'...

*all hail facebook!!!*

random...


checkingmyfacebookstatus - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| i did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ||::..

|| i finally solve the freaking rubix cube baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ||

..::|| strangely all-right... ||::..

|| Happy for the loving couple... =) ||

..::|| slap in the face... ||::..

1 Malaysia 2 Muka

..::|| sand, beach, and coffee-coloured waters... ||::..

|| sun-burned... ||

don't think i will be going to the beach anytime soon...

= . =

..::|| good boy... ||::..

today i have been a very very good boy...
i've stayed at home for the entire freaking day...
and i actually turned down an invitation from my friends to meet up and hang out tonight...
why?! you may ask...

because well,
yesterday i watched




and it was sorta an OK movie i would say...
not much room for character development

BUT

it was action-filled and of course...

HE was in it!!!

major HOT alert!!!


*fanning self*

anyway...
yea, after movie the entire geng went to McDs
and we sat and chat till 3.00 am...

so because of that,
i've grounded my self for today...

hmmm...

never heard of people ground themselves but oh well...
tomorrow finally i'm asked to go to

KidsCAT

kinda nervous i would say...
cause i'm not too sure what to expect actually...
but i shall take on that challenge to teach kids!!!
ush ush!!!

gambatei!!!
wighting!!!

stilladdictedtogrey's-ly OUT bitches...

..::|| flood of inspiration and total design moment... ||::..

ola ya'lls...

yes, this sem has been hectic i can tell you that...
but one subject that i have been enjoying like crazy is intro to design...

( i know it's weird for me to take design because it has nothing to do with psychology whatsoever... )

it's ubber awesomelicious!!!

xD

i never thought i can design something using the computer...

( "paint" gave me some bad experiences... dun ask )

so anyway, we're taught how to use adobe illustrator and photoshop

( but haven't gone to photoshop yet )

and so far... it's awesome!!!

haha...

during the first class when she was doign the introduction lecture and telling us about the assignments and stuff...
i was already having ideas on what to do and what to design...

i can tell you
i creative juices just kept on flowing ever since...
it was like shocking to me...
cause i was never good in drawing...
except sticks figures and yea...
you know what i mean...

but even i myself are impress by my own sketches...

X)

( trying to boost self-confidence there a little... ok maybe a lot!!! )

|| this was my first ever design... we were taught how to use lines and brushes and colours... and then we were asked to just design something... this was what i came up with on the spot... ||

|| and then i went home and did another similar design but i kinda convert it into my hp's wallpaper... xD ||



|| then, the next tutorial we were taught how to use different shapes and how to manipulate the shapes... and then for the exercise, we were asked to design a character... this is wat i came up with... can ya'lls guess what it is?! ||

and for our first assignment, we're require to design two wallpaper design for desktop...
this is where i went crazy... both of my design have something in common... as in the technique i used... but diff message though...


see of ya'lls can figure it out...

=)

|| d e s i g n - O n e ||

|| d e s i g n - T w o ||



hehe...
i'm so happy with both design...
it's simple yet took me quite some time to tweak all the final details and touches to it...
also the lecturer helped a lot!!!

hmmm...
our next assignments are to design two logos...
i'm having some ideas but still have to develop em' first...

so until then...
i will reveal my masterpiece soon...

=)


totallyaddictedtogrey's-ly OUT bitches...

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..
2NE1 - Fire
2NE1 - I Don't Care
2PM - Again & Again
2PM - Hate U
2PM - I don't know if you'll come back
4 minute - Hot issue

..::|| hearty fluttered ||::..

|| aimless fluttering ||

..::|| spider combs all around ||::..

" laziness prevails while procrastinate rules!!! "

( come on, tell me if it's NOT true... )

again, my blog was left unattended for so long...
*sowee bloggie*
ever since that final bow during the final matinee show in Pentas 1,
life was NOT boring...
i can tell you that...
interesting is more like it...
FUN
well, maybe a little...
ok, A LOT!!!

you know, initially all kaki's thought that that last show will be the last time we'll see each other...
how wrong...
we have been yumcha-ing, hang out-ing and just bitching all the time...
i guess our withdrawal syndrome was the urge to hang out with everyone all the time...

( weird but all so true )

i forgot how many times we all hang out or yum cha together but the most prominent one for moi was the other night where we literally sat in McD till dawn...

( does 6.00 am consider as dawn ?! )

we talked, bitched, ate, bitch some more, and at one point, started singing musical tunes...
loudly that is...
so much fun...
then i've notice that almost everyday i met up with my kaki's

either for yum-cha, dinner, movie, performances... etc etc etc...

i'm glad i've found a bucn of friends that will just simply hang out for the sake of hanging out...

IT'S FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

|| still missing ya'lls very the much!!! ||



next stop...

GENTING BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..::|| final curtain call ||::..

wassup bitches!!!

i know i know
i haven't been updating my blog for so so so darah-ly long...
stop throwing stones at me!!!

last sunday was the final curtain call...
KAKI BLUE officially warp up that day...
usually i never get emotionally when a production ends...
ok la...
i do get sad and you know,
withdrawal syndromes and stuff...
( i'm talking about easter )

but other than that, nothing else...
but this time for kaki blue
it was fine in the beginning but let me tell you...
during the final bow...
i was like almost choking...
and then we ran backstage and cheer...
that was the moment...
the moment where all ur emotions just came up
from the bottom of ur gut to ur throat and finally ur mouth...
it was terrible...
and then at the same time...
my friend hugged me...
that was the trigger la...
flood gates of heaven poured out...

it was terrible i can tell you that...
sigh...
it was bad...
no not bad...
worst...

anyway...
before we have time to dwell in our emo emo moments...
the entire cast planned already what to do for the rest of the day...
( kinda like to avoid that moment la )

after the final show, is the cast party...
then immediately after the cast party was Short & Sweet gala night...
( that's another awesome show... )

and lastly
after party by crashing our awesome Jack's condo...
( man i really pity him la... xD )
so yup...
no time to mourn and be depressed...
it was party after party after party... ( i've taken around close to 500 pictures... and that not even counting those that were taken by others... xD )
it was pictures-whoring at it's prime...
i've uploaded some of em' on facebook...

yea...
anyhow...
starting third sem next week...
sigh...
holidays are coming to an end...
sigh...

back to school!!!

=(

i'mfreakingfull-ly OUT bitches...


|| hats off ya'lls... ||

..::|| another dance cover... ||::..

another dance cover i did this morning...
this time is none other than

KARA!!!

this time i experimented with a new video editing software...
took me quite a while to get a hang of it...
but once i did...
dyamnnn...

xD

..::|| i can never imagine... ||::..

found this out of random...
and it's sorta freaky...
like seriously...



O . o "

..::|| early bird gets the yummy chewy worm... ||::..

*yawn*

still can't believe how freaking early i woke up this morning...
considering the fact that i slept around 3.00 am yesterday...

( was watching superhero movie yesterday... it was stupidly funny... xD)

so, decided to called it an early night...
well...
to me it is...
crash in the living room with me two babies...
i was tired...
really tired...
but somehow had some trouble going to sleep...

and then i did...
but it didn't felt like a sleep to me...

= . =

woke up around 7.30 am i think...
and i was like...

*dyamnnn... that's early...*

was trying to go back to my favourite place...
but apparently the bus fare has increase and so i'm stuck in reality...

( i got that line from somewhere... and i'll bet none of ya'll can guess where it's from... muahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahaha )

and what do you do when you can't go back to bed?!
you switch on the TV...
it was pretty awesome...
watching tv in "bed"... sorta...

xD

( smell of fried bread deep in egg aka french toast is filling the air... and it's awesome!!! )

glasses-wearing brother is making breakfast...
so sweet...

i ordered scramble eggs with toast...
hehe
am gonna eat it with chocolate milk and cereal...
yummi-ness!!!

*rushing towards the kitchen*

havingfirstinaverylongtimebreakfast - ly OUT bitches...

ps : the quote is from KAKI BLUE... xD come support ya'll... as always... details as follow...

..::|| wii playing kaki's ||::..

enough said...

xD

..::|| the life of a blue-wearing kaki ||

hmmm...
finally, after much procrastination...
i finally finished my first ever documentary...
sorta...

here it is...
well, i did this in like one hour...
so yea, no special effect...
just plain random-ness...

xD



night ya'll

filledwithfrieschickenwingssaladsandthreelayeredtea - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| food for my ears ||::..
kara - wanna
cascada - everytime (ballad)

..::|| ops... kaki's gone wild ||

what do you get when you put four dudes, Britney Spears and a camera together...

KAKI's GONE WILD !!!



xD

..::|| two down, 14 more to go... ||::..

hey you bitches...
the show opened two days ago and let me tell ya'll...
it was freaking AWESOME alright!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm mean it was seriously totally completely

A-to-the-W-E-S-O-M-E !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

major highlights were major Sabar's catch-phrase
" apa ke HEY ni!!! "
also, the multi-language stand up guy...
but the star of the night i would say hands down...
our dear
"walk-like-a-man" shan
the audiences love love LOVE him...

and lets not forget the incredible cast...
the entire cast ws on full energy that day...
for me personally, i was feeding from the audiences...
it does make a diff man...
i dance, sing, and pour my heart out that night...
it was magical...

then came the second night...
i was foretold about the second-night syndrome...
or something like that...
of course, i got a bit more confident compare to the first night...
but kept myself grounded and focus...
just so i won't get too cocky and all...
again, it was awesome!!!

so yea...
i'm just praying that the entire cast and myself will be able to sustain the energy that are all-so-crucial in this coming weeks...

GAMBATEI YA'LL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there're still tickets for sales...
so come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

details are as attached...



and you can visit the official KAKI BLUE blog...

mari mari mari!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..::|| proper... ||::..

i know i haven't been a good blogger lately...

( blame it on my sheer exhaustion from rehearsals... )

but i have been documenting my journey in KAKI BLUE...
pictures and videos...
it's awesome...
will compile everything later...

ok lets get on with business...

recently, my self-esteem or you can say bitchy confidence took a hard hit...
suddenly, without warning...
i'm not sure what was the trigger nor the reason
but the levels went down quite a bit...
i realized it was low yesterday...

also, i realized that i think a lot when i'm in a car...
my thoughts will just go all hay-wire
physically i'm there but mentally, i'm way beyond the rainbow...

anyhow...
yea...
pretty low...

dyamnn it...

fabulicious paul will not let this happen

*snap*

it's so NOT fabulous

*snap*

we are all fabulicious-ly fabulous

*snap*

dyamnnn right...

xD

random much...
wahahhahahahhahahahahhahaha !!!

opening night in two days time...
and as you guessed it...
butterflies are manifesting themselves slowly but rapidly in me stomach...

can't wait to shine in front of an audiences...

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..::|| a trip down memory lane ||::..

just came back from Jack's place...
we had another party...
ok not really a party...
more like a micro-mini-party-sorta-makan-makan time...
ya...
anyhow...
i was just googling my nickname for fun and guess wat i stumbled across...
my first blog!!!
i'm serious...
i've totally forgotten about it and i still remembered i was in form 5 during highschool when i first create it...
OMfab...
it's like flipping through the pages of history...

it was kinda freaky i have to admit...
and i have to say...
dyamnnn...
i can really write...
i mean wrote...
past tense...
now my grammar and vocab is completely cacat-ed...

anyhow...

here is my first ever post...

xD

First Timer

Hey yo, this is the first time i ever have a blog so any suggestion or comments is totally welcome yah.

Okay, here is a little more detail about myself. I'm a 17 years old teenager still searching his own personal image and identity. I want to clarify one thing. I dun consider myself as religious, i'm more like a faithful follower. Anyway not praising myself or anything, i'm kinda love to socialise with people, no matter who and what you are. As long as i can interact with you and that person can respond to me. Trust me, you dun want to talk to a person where all they do is just stare at you and say nothing. I live in Malaysia which is above Singapore which is in the south east Asia ( for those who dun know ) This country is the best among the best. Beautiful islands and mouth-watering food, it is truly asia. Also Malaysia has everything you can find anywhere else in the world cause we are famous for our copy-cat skill ( btw, that's a compliment to all 'org kampung' out there ). Humble and care for others is my gifts. I just love to help others until it is ridiculous. Here a story where i was taunt for my stupidity.

During my 4th year in highschool, we are require to do a project about some statistic in our class. Rumour has it that this project will affect our major exams result ( till now the rumour is not proven yet ) So i gather with my other two not-so-but-still lazy friends and start doing it. It looks like the project is going to finish any moment till we all just wasted all the precious time doing nothing if you know what i mean. So all we did was onli 10% of the whole project. I was so frustrated and loss hope. So i decided to finish it myself. One of my very-lazy-still-have-the-looks-of-a-taiwanese-star friend didn't care about the project. I was worried bout him cause i treat him as my best friend which i was onli 'tepuk tangan sebelah shj' as in friendship, not relationship yah. ( thats another story ) So me and my really-stupid-kind-heart-but-yet-still-there self came out and make another copy for him so that he won't fail his exams.

Now when i look back, it was really stupid of me. Well as i say, i can be used by anyone anytime anywhere. Dun you guys out there think you can do the same thing cause me have precauntious already.[ btw forgive me for all the wrong spelling cause again my granmar sometimes cacat one ] That is all i can type right now. I will make sure i always update the latest adventure of me life so that everyone in the world can make fun of me. - pAuL -


my goodness...
crazy right?!
lol...
there were only two post there...
so yea...

i'm tired...
gonna call it a night ya'll

readytobesweptoffmyfeet - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| second attempt ||::..

i woke up this morning
and out of random

( and bored partially )

i finally completed a dance cover for my fav girl band ever...


SNSD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


awesome-ness!!!
finally after months of practicing and viewing their performances and researching countless videos...
i finally manage to nail down all the choreography for their newest single...

tell me your wish (genie)

awesome-ness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and this is the dance cover i've uploaded onto youtube...
be gentle with the critics bitches...


xD

..::|| laziness brings out the most creative ways... ||::..

i'm too lazy to type all my thoughts
and so decided to make a video instead...
ya'll know i love to talk right?!
muahahahahhahahahahhaha...



tell what ya'll think of this new format of blogging ya...
and if the respond is good...
i shall do more of it in the future...

gonnagoandsleepnow - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| vow i made to myself... ||::..

I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER
F***ING STEP MY FABULOUS FOOT INTO A CLUB ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..::|| major sweatness... ||::..

went out for dinner just now...
and we went to a restaurant where me mum is a very good friend to the cook...
one moment she's the customer...
next thing i know
she was in the restaurant's kitchen cutting a fish...

= . = "

apparently from what i heard...
someone gave her a free fish and she decided to help prepared it... so to say...
and yea...
i was having the "wat-the" moment...
and then i thought to myself...
this is such a blogging material...
haha...
yea...

the fish was awesome-ly fresh!!!
so yup...
it was an awesome dinner...

my mum never cease to amaze me...

^ ^

sarangae!!!

|| yup, she's there... cutting the fish... ||

reallygoingtosleepnow - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| sweet sweet scoop of freedom ||::..

|| my legs are getting uglier... xS ||

yes...
once again...
i'm licking off the sweet taste of freedom...
its so yummy i will never get tired of the taste...

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

( for those who don't have a clue what i'm talking about... think exams, think last paper... now think free time... )

yesterday, me gurls and yours truly went to the river of money...
aka sg. weng for some shopping...
but my wallet was anorexically thin...
and so that prevented me from any major spenditure...
sigh...
need my retail therapy...

anyhow,
we went to sg. weng and i don't know how to put this...
but that place give me a sense of familiarity...
which is weird cause the number of times i've been there is countable with one hand...

( i think the sentence above is granmatically wrong... )

but somehow, i felt sorta, well you can say
belonged or homey...
hmmm...

so we walked around and bought some knitting stuff...

( yea, they wanted to learn how to knit and i was suppose to teach em'... the irony is too obvious... )

went to this place where their food was alright...
after our lunch... we started our mini knitting class...
and gossipped away...

so you can imagine the entire scenario where two of us are knitting...
and we're chit-chatting gossip-style...

( total grandma... )

after that we went to
Low Yat...

( is that how you spell it?! )

cause my gurl wanted to check out some laptops...
and instantly
i became a computer geek...
telling her what to look for
what is what...
i even gave a very useful illustration on how RAMs, hard-disk, and processors worked...

" a RAM is like a desk where you do your work on...
hard-disk are the cabinet files that you store your work in...
and processors are the person whose is doing the work..."

pretty good i may say...

xD

( geek )

after that it was time for moi to go to rehearsal...
thankfully, the journey was relatively alright...

and the best part was that it was drizzingly slightly when i reached the station...
so i took out my mini umbrella and started walking towards KLPac...
totally enjoying the moment...
i would have just walked in the rain instead but because i was wearing a white tee and the bag i'm carrying will fade... so yea...
don't wanna ruin that t-shirt...

oh yea...
almost forgot...
the day before...
right after my final paper...
i went straight to KLPac...
and arrived around 4.00 pm...
it was the earliest i've been there before rehearsals...
and since i don't have to study for anything anymore...
i spend the entire time doing what i've always wanted to do...
hanged out with fishies, duckies, and tortoises...
it was so awesome!!!

i was feeding them crackers...
and then i read my book

( for one more day by Mitch Albom )

by the lake...
and the entire thing was just so relaxing and so...
erm...
that's a word for it...
so...
err...

nvm...
yea...
and that's how i spend the entire afternoon before the others came...

awesome right?!
anyway...
tomorrow is photoshoot for the program book...
we have to think of three poses to do and i've decided to do jumping shots...

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

calling it a night...

needtofeedmywallettomorrow - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| food for my ears ||::..
britney spears - radar
rihanna - te amo
craig david - insomnia
wheesung - insomnia

|| loving it !!! ||

..::|| sleepy head... ||::..

yesterday, my sheer exhaustion caught up with moi...
i knock out cold from like around 10.00 pm till the next morning...
of course mini wakes up in between to check on my lappie...
and to think that i have a final paper on Thurs...
which is tomorrow...
i can't wait for it to finish...
like seriously...

sweet freedom...
i can only taste and lick ya...

anyhow...

on Tue we had our press conference on the musical...
got loads of pics...
hehe...
but too lazy to upload now...
promise will do it after my finals ok?!

sigh...
feeling a bit hungry...
gonna eat some thing before calling it a night...

=)

hugeflowingriverofnile - ly OUT bitches...

ps : wahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahah!!! to understand my latest OUT-line... you have to ask me personally... or i'll just blog about it later... xD

..::|| impact of technologies ||::..

i have never fully grasped the full impact of technologies until today...

i've just realize that technologies have become so much apart of our life that it's almost scary to think how much we are dependent on them...

can you imagine what our entire world will do if one day technologies just disappear?!

anyhow...

today i wanted to print some stuff...
but the files are in my laptop...
so the "normal" way is to transfer the files to a thumbdrive and then transfer em' to the computer and print it out...
but genius like me...

( more like lazy bones... )

decided that it's troublesome...
and so i attached em' to my email and sent them to myself...

( you can do that apparently... )

was going to then...
my bro was using the com...
and genius me have another brain blast...
hehe...

why not send to my bro's email and ask him to print it out instead...

AWESOME!!!

and that's not all...
i was in my room right...
and lazy to go out...
so i shouted his name...

then decided...
you know wat...
why not MSN him instead?!

and so i did...

i tell you...
while MSN-ing him...
it hit me...
although we are IN the SAME house, only a few feets apart...
i have to use MSN to communicate with him instead of the old-fashion face-to-face communication...

yup...

awesome-ly weird right?!

haha...

wishmeluckforfinalstomorrow - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| in awe... ||::..

today my sweet sweet SWEET friend invited moi to this show in

Malaysian Philharmonic

and it was awesome!!!
like seriously

awesome!!!

i've always wanted to take a trip there ever since i've heard of it
and of course, i've always have a major interest in orchestra...
and so...
today i'm finally not a Philharmonic virgin!!!

dyamnnnnn!!!

the conductor was Bernard Labadie
and a special appearance by world class soprano Emma Bell

i've never been to an orchestra show or anything like it before
so you can only imagine my excitement
i'm like a kid in a music candy shop...

apparently, the cheap seats are right in front...
i've always thought that the nearer you are to the stage...
the more pricey the seats are...
but yea...
the further you are from the stage...
the better the view apparently...
but to me...
i love the front seats...
cause i'm like mesmerize by the orchestra...
seriously...
my eyes were like being so greedy...
trying to capture everything in...
but sadly...
they don't allow any photographing in the hall...
so yea...

all i can say is that the hall was breath-taking...
and the sound coming from the orchestra...
it seems like the hall aid in making the music more beautiful as it is...

and don't get me started with the soprano singer...
she was awesome-ly amazing!!!
i mean the very first time i experienced live opera...
and it was awesome!!!
her voice was filled with emotions and very story-like telling kinda thing...
and her facial expression was telling a story as well...

for a art noob like myself...
i actually understand the message she was trying to convey...
it was that good...
dyamnnn...
and i think that she was so into the performance
that she actually have tears in her eyes...
like seriously...

*clap clap clap*

this is only the beginning...
i think i will be a very faithful patrons in the future...
hehe...
awesome!!!

loving it!!!

tonight was awesome...
worth the effort and all...
gonna so again soon...

and guess who i bump into while coming out from the hall...

Tracy!!!
she was with a 17-year old date...

according to her...

= . = "

i didn't know she was into that...
anyhow...
tomorrow not going to rehearsal...
cause finals is on Monday...

X(

can't believe it's already finals...
gonna work!!!

ush ush!!!

gambatei!!!

fighting!!!

stillcanhearthestringsplaying - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| not much... ||::..

i won't be able to update as much these few days
cause my finals are on Monday and
i'm goona try and cram in as much as possible la...
not that it will make any difference

( choi!!! )

wish the exams would finish faster
so that i can finally enjoy the rehearsal without
a freaking book in my face all the time...

i'm serious
if you were to crash the rehearsal hor...
you will see me deep in my notes or books
try to get some revision done
and the worst part is that
during those free moments we have in rehearsals
that's when the bonding happens...
and i'm missing out so much...

*sob*

it's ok...
thurs i shall be absolutely free!!!

anyhow
just came back from rehearsals
again...
tired as usual
but still gonna do some last minute studying...
and kill my brain off...
well, at least tomorrow i'm going to a special event...
an event that i have to dress up for...
hmmm... finally i can wear that vest with that orange striped shirt...

fabulicious-ness!!!

gonna cam-whore

( note to self, charge batteries... )

hmmm...
what else...

oh yea...
i heard people are getting sick at an alarming rate...
take good care ya'll
drink more 100 plus

( i'm serious... it helps... )

and increase the vitamin C intake...

gambatei!!!

fighting!!!

dyamnn, i hate this migraine i'm having...
is it migraine or is it just a headache?!

*scratching head... literally...*

oh well... shall stop here now...
hope you guys have a great weekend ya'll

takegoodcareya - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| do-re-mi ||::..
super junior - it's you

|| i saw a huge beetle today!!! ||