..::|| not caring anymore... ||::..

this is random and a total outburst but yea...






I DON'T FREAKING CARE ANYMORE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





wutever - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| you know you're a HELP psychology student when... ||::..

1. surely your textbook is listed under your references in every single assignment...

2. you think writing a 5 page essay is a nightmare

3. you scream "APA is HELL!!!"

4. lecturers of yours are agents of torture!!!

5. you play BANG! in tutorials (depends on tutor... XP)

6. you complained about the prices in wisma HELP but still eat there because too lazy to go anywhere else

7. you don't find any difference between mid-terms and finals... both are equally stressful

8. you hate group assignments if the members are randomly assigned

9. you either hate turnitin or love it... depends on the percentage...

10. you begin to used psychological terms in your everyday conversations

11. only psychology students understand your jokes

12. you begin to analyze your own love life during social psychology

13. you see BIRG and CORF in every single football match...

14. you think that double spacing is a blessing in a 20-page report

15. you completed more surveys as compare to a typical normal student from another course...

|| i shall add to this list when i think of more... ||

..::|| time-travelling ||::..

|| easy, breezy, beautiful... ||

Can't believe classes are ending soon...
it's almost the end of the semester...

pretty fast if you ask me...
to add on the unbelieveness...
we're completing our first year already...
it's ridiculously quick...

still having the freshmen syndrome sometimes when i strut across the hallways...
I'm getting used to the new environment but somehow it's still a stranger to me...
i guess only when you leave will you finally feel the familiar-ness of that place...

my exact sentiment when i went back to KDU the other day...
it was all so familiar to me...
the familiar scent of the fresh produce being cooked to perfection as hungry patrons of the college flock the tables and chairs hoping to catch some yummy-ness before back to the torturous lessons...

sitting in the middle of all chaos...
i was transported back in time to the olden days where i was one of them...
it was almost surreal...
i even bump into some old friends...
it's truly is a back in time moment for moi...



coming back to the present time...
was just mentioning about entering the second year of our course...
my friends and i
we're just saying that we still feel like first year students...
newbies...

by entering this new stage
we no longer have the permission to act like newbies...
no more

"i'm not sure where this class is leh..."

or

"how do you do the references again?!"

or worst...

" where to check the schedule?!"


yea...
some of the questions that fills me ears all the time...
i shall compile a list of things later...





need to pee...

*running away*




XP




wastingtimeaway - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| ASSignments... ||::..

i'm suppose to be doing my assignments...
urg!!!
i can't write anymore...
am having writer's block...

( yet i can blog about it... the irony... )

hmmm...

just had like a marathon of communitychannel...

( youtube it... )

love the milo challenge...
feel like doing it but oh gosh...
i can't drink milk to save my life!!!

XD

anyway...
feeling a bit hungry now...
maybe i should go to McD's and do my assignments there instead...

hmmm...

nah... i prefer my own room...
there's a bed at least if i ever need some instant trip to dream land...

Oh yea...
i'm not sure whether ANYONE reads my blog but
let me know what ya'lls think about the way i wrote my previous post...
should i continue to write that way or should i stick to my usual
bitch-talking-kinda-informal-i-don't-give-a-dyamnnn
kinda thing...
let me know alright?!

just drop a word or two in the comment box
and i'll go check it out...

=)

dozingoff - ly OUT bitches...

ps : i know you guys won't even try to youtube it... so being a kind soul like me... i shall post them up here...

say thank you now...



|| anyone wants to accept her challenge?! ||

..::|| i wonder... ||::..

is cupid playing with me or something?!

*i know la i kinda lost your trust the last time but really... this is so mean of you!!!*

exactly one year ago i dumped my first ever official BF for a very stupid reason...
it's something i'm ashamed and never will i repeat it again...
i think because of that, cupid is very mad at me and decided to curse me to eternal damnation of singleness

*why would you shoot an arrow at my direction when you know it's either will not stab me deep enough or will just deflect from my thick skin?!*

not that i'm desperate but you know, it would be nice to have someone...
despite the drama and bitchiness and all the undecisiveness that comes with it...
i prefer having that one person there as compare to playing eye-ball tag wherever i go...
it's tiring and stupid and sometimes just plain creepy on my part...

*the arrow you shot was too short my darling, it didn't pierce deep enough... it just scratched his skin only...*

but this time cupid really went too far...
i found someone
( technically he found me but lets just keep my ego down for now )
and it was all fun until we went deeper...

...

=.=

( sounded wrong... )


i mean intimate...

( better... )

it was seriously the relationship i would say i have been waiting all my life for...

||have you ever met a person whom can tell your thoughts by just a single glance of your face?!||

||have you ever feel like your're so comfortable in his arms that you just want sleep there forever?!||

||Have you ever hear another human being's heart beat knowing it's beating a bit faster because of your presence?!||

||Have you ever fantasize all the things you wanna do with your bf and only to find out you've done all the things on the list in just two days?!||

yes...
my answer is yes to all of the above...
it's that fast and that crazy of a ride...

spending time with him was fun...
it was like hanging out with a best friend...
and no to mentioned the no barrier communication we had...
i mean seriously...

NC-17 is an understatement in terms of labeling our conversation

( meaning that we're open to each other... not dirty talk ok! )

it was seriously the one relationship i have been waiting for...

*you gave me an almost-perfect guy without any catch nor complications but why this?!*

so wat's the problem?!
well, apparently second thought was the culprit...
he was having second thought about where we stand...
i guess it was moving a bit too fast and now we're kinda stuck at a place where routine begins to set in and familiarity is spreading...
so it's either be contempt with the current situation or move to the next level
and i think he got a bit freaked out...

*are my feelings that fun to play with?! it's MY feelings btw...*

and so we had THE TALK...
and it went on for an hour or so...

( not too bad... considering we're actually like only three weeks in... )

and while we're going thru this...
i was smiling...
not because i'm happy nor trying to hide my pain...

i was genuinely smiling...
because to tell you the truth...
i sorta expected it...

( no, not psychic nor six sense... just something i know )

so while he was tearing up and letting all out...
i was just listening and explaining and smiling...

until a point where he actually said

" don't smile like that, you're making me feel like an ASS... "

XD

i know...

*but i'm prepared... i've learned how NOT to be affected by this... i'm not as vulnerable as i was two years ago...*

but yea...
in the end...
we agree on common ground...
no one was hurt deeply nor any conflict was created...

a bit disappointment is of course inevitable but hey, it's better than falling into the pits of misery right?!

*i'm stronger and way more matured than you think i am, and yes, thanks to you, i've grown and might even outgrown more than you predicted...*

and so, it was a happy ending in some sense...
i gain a new friend and i do hope this friendship will last...
because of the intimacy we shared, high possibility it will i believe...

( not to mentioned the jokes only the both of us will understand... XP )

all in all, great experience and fun was definitely in the equation...
something i will cherish this for a very long time to come...

*but i still trust you and do ask for your forgiveness... i'm not blaming you, just saying...*

so here's to a great experience and greater ones to come!!!

*give me a break will ya?! i'm tired to start new ones and playing all this games is really taking it's tool on me... so i'm leaving it all to you...*

( fyi, i know you're reading this... don't misunderstood... it's just something i need to write about... noticed the anonymity of the post... so yea... no worries... =) )


( although i really wanna tell that someone though... would be awesome to see his facial expression... XD )

*i do hope HE is running as fast as he can to catch up with me...*

*To Cupid. With love, Paul*

*ps : i'm still allow to have preference right?! and you remember my perferences?! =P*


clinkingandclankingaway - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| kinda-expected decision... ||::..

|| back to fluttering... ||

..::|| stroke by stroke... ||::..

i can't believe i have been going down to the pool for so many times now...
it's amazing...
like awesome-ly healthy way...

XD


but the pool is not so appetizing...
there's like mold on the walls...
stuff at the bottom of the pool...
pretty disgusting...

one of the reason why i never used a goggle...
i don't wanna see in detail where i'm swimming at...

besides the disgusting pool...
i managed to swimming 10 laps!!!
it's crazy wei...
and i don't like you know...
grasping for air after that...
i'm so shock at my own stamina...

XD

healthy living baby!!!

adding to my new-ly acquire lifestyle...
my diet is changing too...

and yes...
skipping meals and ridiculous-ly small portions are part of it...

but it's sorta healthy i guess...
i have quite a heavy breakfast by my own definition...
skipped lunch...
maybe eat a small snack
and gorge like a pig during dinner...
which i guess makes no different la...
but oh well...

anyway...
i've started exercising again...
but highly doubt i can maintain it...

X(

but i shall try !!!

healthy living baby!!!

randommuchpost - ly OUT bitches...

..::|| hibernation... ||::..

this blog is not dead!!!



















i figured i have to start my post like that just so that ya'lls know i haven't abandon this blog just yet...
not that i will...
but ya...

updates updates updates...
*update no.1*
I don't remember posting about this but i signed up for an audition almost three weeks ago...
for a upcoming musicale...
it's a comedy kinda musicale...
and guess what...

i got in!!!

awesome-ness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yup, i got in as an ensemble...
but i'm understudying for one of the main roles...
so it's exciting!!!
and the best part is that practice is starting soon but it's not gonna be like ubber hectic and all...

*update no.2*
also i'm involved in the Christmas dance this year!!!

seems like my career in performing arts is really taking off man!!!

XD

*update no.3*
major major add-on...
i'm choreographing for a musical for kids...
it's super cute!!!
most of my choreography are inspirations from youtube and there's even some moves from GEE!!!
( youtube-ed snsd-gee... you'll know what i mean... XP )

yes... as i've said, it's really taking off...
i'm kinda surprise and taken back at the busy schedule i'm having now...
classes are crazy...
assignments are even worst...

but i'm getting the hang of it...
it's awesome...

but i'm kinda beat up by all these stuff...

i have to wake up at 5.45am almost everyday single day since last week...
( need to catch the bus... *sigh* )

can't wait for the car to arrive...

oh did i mention...

*update no.4*
i'm getting a freaking car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XDDDDDD

it's my mum's car, she'll be getting a new car...
i'm just happy to be getting some sort of vehicle that origins i'm sure of and not some weird random vehicle whose history i know nothing of...
( dyamnnn... england suddenly so the powderful... )

*update no.5*
one last update before i official lay my head on my feather pillows...

and this i have to show in pictures instead...

suspense ma...


i call this

|| fluttering companion... ||

amtotallyback - ly OUT bitches!!!

..::|| grooving barreh ||::..

snsd - chocolate love
kara - mister
shinee - ring ding dong
colbie callat - falling for you